Sometimes seeing how people see things outside of the Washington & NY bubble lets you know you're not alone. As Crazy as the world has gotten there are still many of us out here who see things from a different perspective. A real perspective because we are living and working in the real world. Working day to day to make the ends meet.
I am often amazed by how truly ridiculous life can be, petty jealousies, I/Me personalities and cattiness abounds. It makes me a little sad to see that we can't seem to learn from our mistakes. That as people, we are so busy trying to get ahead of everyone else that it is all too often, at the expense of each other.
Nothing in life is worth that people, no matter what God you believe in I know of no religion that teaches that as one of its key principles. With that being said, sometimes it is better to walk away from something then suffocate from all of that negativity. “Yes this is one of my hippie moments”.
In trying to do right by all I find myself at a crossroads were going with the flow is not an intelligent option. So what do you do when life gets in the way? How do you switch gears and regroup to find your footing on the path you're meant to be on? I know many people may argue that sometimes we have to suck it up and deal with it. Or quit whining and do something!
For me at least I am able to see it as one door closing and another opening to a new adventure. No matter what happens in life, or how upset I may get about things there is always a reason why things happen the way they do. It isn’t the end of the world until you curl up your toes and actually die, and thankfully I am a long way from that.
Being nasty to people doesn’t solve anything, nor does being sneaky and lying about someone you may not like. I can only feel sorry for people who feel that their happiness in life depends on bashing others. Its kind of pathetic if you ask me. Don’t get me wrong, I get angry at people but when you become an adult the hope is that you learn to stand up for yourself without causing harm to others.
I learned the hard way to believe in myself. Perhaps that is what this blog is about tonight, believing in who you are. There will always be people who will try to drive that bus right over top of you, but if you let them and do nothing you lose. So step aside I say, eventually they will drive that bus right into the wall all by themselves. Karma has a way of doing that to people.
So my goal for the summer is to start writing for real even if its a short story or an article or two.One of my favorite authors said, “People who write write, people who worry about every single word can waste a lifetime trying to write that great novel that never gets done. She by the way write, and has multiple books out their.
Sometimes life does get in the way of us, it isn't always the way we may want it to be but it is how life can be at times. In the day to day, life can be busy, hectic and at times overwhelming but it is important to take a moment and remember the people in our lives that we love. In May I have two such people my dearest friend Sandy and my Mom whose birthday’s are within several days of each other. I don’t always have the time I would like to appreciate them yet they are both incredibly patient with me.
Each is special in her own unique way, Sandy for her feisty Staten Island gumption that is as much a part of her as he humor. No matter how crazy her life may get she always has a warm hug for everyone. She is the person you want at your back in a pinch because she gets loyalty, honesty and integrity like no one else. These strengths make me love her as a friend all the more.
As a habitual loner, (yes that is me) , initially she threw me completely off balance. Yet with stubborn determination she has always been there as a friend and confident. You are my favorite person, hands down my BFF. You don’t allow me to get away with my hermit like ways, and force me to interact with the rest of the world. Real courage in life is shown to us every day by women like Sandy. On this your special of all days, Happy Birthday my friend.
The other woman in my life who keeps me on an even keel. Who has kept me going through the hardest days of my life and beyond is my mom. At 5ft tall she is by far the toughest and yes most caring women I know. Were most of us would give up she is the determined little elf who does not go away.
Had it not been for her love and honesty I would not have made it through my turbulent life. There are people who will tell you what you may not want to hear, even though it is the truth. At the same time you can't measure their love for you as a person, because you are always surprised by how deep it is. Every small glimpse I am given into who she is as a woman, and mother leaves me humbled and in aw.
Despite having people behave badly toward her she never ever gives up on them. Her heart has no bounds, no limits and no reservations when it comes to family and friends. She is were I learned my manners from, where I learned what it meant to be a woman, and mother. I know in a million years I will never be the human being she is. As an adult I have learned what loyalty is from her. I have learned that she is one of the few people I will go absolutely ballistic defending against anyone foolish enough to hurt her heart. She is more then my mom as a woman grown she is also my friend.
So to both of you, may god keep you safe on your specialist of days. You are both truly a gift to this world, and I am a better person for having known you both. Your honesty and determination to be who you are makes you both a gift worth cherishing. Happy Birthday Ladies, with all of my heart I hope you special day is filled with laughter and love.
Finally another semester comes to a close. Looking back over this school year I am both happy and sad. As I take one step closer to my goal I know the path will only get harder. I am soul weary at the moment from both life and school, and find myself glad for the break in my routine.
I learned that I had not forgotten as much about biology as I thought. That people can be both good and bad, depending on which side of the conversation you're on.
With only four classes left to take to obtain my degree I am faced with the dilemma many college student face. Where do I go from here, do I continue on for my Bachelors degree or do I throw myself into the workforce wholeheartedly. Which course of study do I pursue? English, History, or business, psychology, or do I revert back and go after that coveted degree in journalism.
One of the many things I was sure of going into this was that I wanted to obtain a degree in Journalism, yet I do find myself stymied due to the many changes the internet has brought to the field. It seems like the days of writing articles and researching the subject then reporting it in an unbiased manner are long gone. Depending on what television station you watch, or what internet source you use for your news, the stories seem to be slanted one way or the other.
My patient study companion.
So over the nice short summer I will spend time with my family who have been truly wonderful through this year. Work in my garden, go to auctions and sell on ebay, and in my store and try to figure out just what it is I want to do with my life. As silly as that may sound coming from a 46 year old, it is the truth. I know where I am professionally is not where I want to be for the rest of my life. I am just not sure where it is I am mente to go.
Yes chocolate cake is part of college.
No matter how much I may enjoy the learning process I can't spend the rest of my life going to school. Even though the thought is appealing in some ways. I never expected to find real joy in the process of learning, especially at this stage in my life. As of right now, if you have been following along, it looks like my daughter Chrissy and I will be graduating together next May. As a mom I am so proud of her for finding what it is she wants to do with her life, and going after it. This has been a rough year emotionally and mentally, for all of us. It has brought my beloved hubby and myself closer together despite the late nights doing homework and working on things at home.
So stick around and follow me over the summer as I figure this one out. We all find our path in life, some just find it later and get to savor the journey more.
Chrissy's gift to me. Thank you baby. love you always.
Happy Mothers Day.....
Whether you're a mom or going to be a mom, if you're one of those special women who is mother to many, or a father who is also a mother, go out and enjoy your day. If its goofing off, giving to others, reading a book, catching a movie. just enjoy a quiet cup of coffee or tea and take a time for you. Ladies we get one day don't waste it. Be safe and enjoy and don't take what you have (your kids) for granted they are your gift and your legacy.